July 2011
1 post
June 2011
2 posts
More Wonderment
I’ve always wante- No, not wanted… even dreamed is a terrible word for my thoughts on this matter. I’ve desired isn’t even close either…
I’ve always foretold the day that I surpass the idea of God, in the eyes of all beings of some universe. Of course, I always muse that it will be our universe, the one we believe we inhabit as I type these words upon the...
It is time
My arms are stretched out before me, fingers reaching towards the green/blue marble in the distance and met with equal effort by the black tie floating out before my. My fingernails turn purple and the colour runs from my hands as the fresh paint on a canvas in the rain, all of this happens before me in a slo-motion that I thought improper of the situation known as death.
My mind ceases to wander...
April 2011
1 post
A Lack of Motivation...
a lack of inspiration… and a sudden desperation for a certain someone…
February 2011
1 post
Long time no see tumblr
So, in the last couple of weeks ive beecoke lazy, so much that the quality of the work and ideas ive produced is rediculously low. Suffice it to say im disappointed in me.
To make amends to myself, i need to start producing thoughts more regularly, become more motivated, and remember why im here in uat. Remember the failure that humanity is, remember that it can change… remember, that i am...
December 2010
1 post
Another A Life Plan
Why do these things come up while I’m unable to move more than 1 foot at a time. Freakin’ airplanes.
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Alife 1 design
Concept – using basic rules, the program will seek to create a more efficient copy.
What consists of a being?
Each entity will consist of a collection of chemicals labeled: w a s d
Each letter must be paired with another. Only specific...
November 2010
4 posts
I hate
I hate it when nothing comes together the way you want it to. When you plan out your day, and you know that plan will get all of your work done with time to spare.
Then, like a mythical creature, bad shit happens. It appears out of the blue, fucks up your day, then before anyone else notices darts out of sight and beyond proving…
God that feeling sucks.
But what’s amazing, is taking...
Dev-In Basic
Combination of likes - Breeding of contraries.
In the idea of opposites abstract, allow replicating programs to decide likeness. When running the final result of multivariable equations, if both come to the same conclusion, they combine functions to create a more specific program. Should the two be different, rather than combine: take the difference and create a thurd based on this separation.
...
Oh the Wonders of the Human Body
It never ceases to amaze me, the lack of thinking I begin to have after exploring human anatomy for even 20 minutes. The noises, the feelings, the repetitive thoughts like the motion of a child in its mother’s arms. All these things brought together in a single explosion of expressions, noises, and neural shocks. Gods be damned, that feeling - the only one to pull my mind off of its hamster...
Just Got This Feeling
that someone I know started hating me quite recently… Don’t know who… Don’t know why. But it’s still a possibility.
Odd…
Maybe I shouldn’t drink so much coffee when I go to Database class.
I’m sure that’s the reason. XD
October 2010
2 posts
The End of the End of the World.
So yeah… After surviving a mission to hell, stealing machines and running through the masses of undead, I felt a sense of relief… but then we find there is more to do: Destroy the zombie hive mind, and return alive.
Before I left Founder’s Hall I told Kahn and Molly “I’ve gotta go die now.” and I wasn’t lying.
2 hours after leaving, the hive was...
So... humans vs. zombiez
It’s day three. And I’m still human.
It’s been a fucking long road too. Yesterday had me dodging bullets and holding a door for three teams for two hours. The close calls are innumerable. So far the bodies of dead zombies have landed limp at my feet me more than I care to count. I’ve run miles from parks to businesses, and have saved at least 12 lives in a two day span.
...
September 2010
11 posts
That's The World I Live In
I look at the dryer… It tells me there’s 16 minutes left on the cycle, and it makes me realize how tired I am.
I’ve been doing laundry for over 2 hours now… This is why I never did laundry at home, so time consuming.
I stayed up far to late last night. I couldn’t resist the call to stay up till 5 am. In the end I missed A Life and a deep conversation. Women are what...
New Computer Idea
Well, I’ve been tinkering with my desktop for god knows how long, and if I ever replace this graphics card (Ruined by fedex btw) it will work fine. So Now I am thinking of my future computer hardware projects.
One idea has always been to Jury Rig (or in my experience NiggerRig using Duct Tape and chicken wire (Note: NiggerRigging doesn’t imply that its a racist rig that resembles an...
Your words
Every time we speak I gain a sense of belonging. Our bond, like that of a simple atom, is unbreakable A love that isn’t shared by any other pair. My joy remains palpable, my feelings still pure. I love you my dearest, of that I am sure.
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My professor asked us what defines something as “living”. Scientists and thinkers have all tinkered with reproduction,...
Dreaming
I had the most satisfying dream last night. It wasn’t particularly happy, nor can I remember the exact words I’d used in the conversation that took place, but I have the basics… and with that I would like to display to you, my perfect closure moment.
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It’s winter, in Florida. The temperature is a calming 65 degrees and I find...
home work
Guess who forgot how to plan to do it?
I Love it When They Never Listen
I don’t think I’ve had more than one single relationship (friendship, date, meeting) where a person had simply listened and absorbed something I’ve tried to explain. No matter how disconnected I am, no matter how heartless, how careless I am for the human race - and it is clear by now that I would dispose with humanity should I only have the red button - I have always tried with...
New Meme
“Fucking Spinning Disks ><”
When The Addiction Returns
It has become apparent to me that my thoughts have returned to the state they were in pre-change date. I’m a chaotic mess of disorganized thought from sunrise to sunset in an inability to understand what my mind is spouting forward. I create ideas, waste them to the back of my mind and quickly forget they existed only to have new ones reappear in the microseconds it takes to do so.
My...
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what is there to say about today, aside from my particular favorite description of “Um”? No of course, nothing happens the day before classes start. I am left to my own means for fun, only to find due to this that my school is much more interested in its low population of women. I have since reached an impasse with one such woman that has left me with the reasoning of never having them...
Its official
after an hour long bike ride to find a good shop, 102* got fucking hot.
There comes a time...
…when you know everything is gonna be all right. After a week in a new world, one may realize one of many things, when its perfect acceptance of change, understanding that what has happened will make everything all right in the end and that the situation before them is very much like all others in life.
It has appeared true that my charisma is enough to find me becoming friends with almost...
August 2010
8 posts
in flight
So here we are, on the plane on my way towards new horizons. That are we to expect to find out here in this… dark? bright? the proper adjective eludes me. In either case, what lies ahead seems almost organic in nature-ever changing before me with no signs of allowing one such as me, to view what is to come in a future that decides if i am to succeed in the goals for which life and the...
When it's Not What You Expected
have you ever had that feeling, the one where you are so excited for something to come, that you lose all use of rational thought? It begins with a bit of good news - someone or something tells you that something important to your life is on its way.Instantly your heart races, and your mind begins developing ideas of what it is that you want so badly. You imagine exactly what you think will...
Lost in Thought
I often find myself drifting through the day, focused on a topic far from the one at hand. I’ll stare on blankly at the work at hand, fingertips jostling lightly from left to right, making whatever menial task happen without my consent. I move with static motion - each twist turn and throw the same as the last, no change in even my facial expression.
Though my movements are constant, my...
And Another Thing...
To the People of the world,
These are not the lives you were meant to live. You walk around day by day - acting as if… what? As if your actions meant nothing to the existence of the whole? That, if you were to die right now, nothing would change in the world? Though you may be right, simply from our sheer numbers, but one thing will have changed no matter what you do to get by - whatever...
A Necessary Evil
The Life of Sean O’Brien
Yes, this is the Tumblr, belonging to Sean M O’Brien… But Sean does not post here.
Instead some will notice a Mr. Jason H Mathews will be telling the tails, spinning the webs, and taunting your minds with his cryptic wording.
Enjoy the stories children. And remember, the internet is only as true as you make it.
=_______________=
As another phase of...
A Rarity... To be Sure
fate and a devotion to the truths of our world… whether my implications on what have been seen are simply wrong… should i be making evidence for an answer rather than an answer for the evidence the answer to the question is clear.
I may not believe in God, nor the idea that anything is predetermined. But right now… even if out of context… it told me my answer.
Jason -...
A Rarity... To be Sure
It’s an oddity.
An event that happens to all life, where good turns to bad - bad to worse - sane commonness to insane obscurities. Time, in its seemingly linear motion, never holds it back no matter how hard we wish it would - it almost seems determined to bring it to life.
From this six letter word, the world keeps turning and mankind has become what it is today. Ladies and Gentlemen on...
January 2010
2 posts
‘Tis the one you love
I stare out my window, its glass pane larger than my arm-span and equal to my height, the curtains pulled aside and the empty plain before me as bare as I. I hold nothing back. As I look out, I day dream. I think of things I’ve done, people I’ve hurt, and the numerous things I will do that may bring even more pain. What in my life keeps me sane? How can I possibly stand it all?
Is it hope, fury?...
And now it is that I dont want to be
So the pain returns. My mind is up in full force once again following a week of false alarms.
I have begun yet another span of endless thought that will ravage my mind until the moment that I want to throw myself off a cliff, defy logic, and learn to fly by losing concentration on falling entirely.
I don’t know the cause, and yet again I managed to miss the starting gun to examine it...
December 2009
9 posts
I adore my boyfriend :D
nanakathleen:
Even in his tacky Papa John’s uniform xD
wtf is with you and tacky? How is a required work uniform Tacky? A floral shit is tacky, veganism is tacky, white after labor day is tacky… a uniform required to earn money is not, its just ugly.
Black Diamond Rising
So, my alter -ego from the world of Second Life has promoted Catzi Radio within MxO for the short number of years it existed. But now we have moved up into the world of second lives, and I would like to push it into your first life as much as I can!
As we transition into Black Diamond Broadcasting, master system of Catzi Radio and SL TV stations to come, please direct your browser to Black...
WTF
FINALLY DONE! Holy shit.
Somewhere around 400+ lines of code. And its only 330 am… I have to be up in 2.5 hours…
Yeah I think I’m calling in sick so I can finish the homework and the written part of the project…
It is here
Time to make up for all my procrastination.
Gotta do 4 sets of homework as well as a programming project that is due tomorrow.
Tonight I test two things, my ability to stay on task, and my programming prowess. To you all, Good night.
-Sean M. O’Brien Lead Programmer (Life 2.0)
Off,
Shelby’s phone is
Good day is good
Twas a good day Very interesting And had quite a few pitfalls, But good none the less.
Glad to see theat ten minus the meaning of life still holds ground somewhere >.< Anyhow, story time?
Went to school, thought about playing L4D2, worked on the station site for a while, then jumped off into calculus, where I slept and realized I have a test tomorrow… Fuck.
Anyhow, went and worked...
mmhmm
Shelby:
I love you Sean more than anything. You’re the best big brother anyone could ever ask for.
<3
November 2009
6 posts
Unfortunately
It is obvious that this ends as soon as the sex does… Im thinking again. Time to hit the liquor in the morning and pass my Calc test. If that doesnt help me pass… Nothing will T_T
Discovered something in sex
Turns out Im not addicted to it because of the feeling… or rather because of the exstacy. When I feel that feeling… and it’s being done right… I actually, don’t think.
For a fraction of my time I feel no urge to think, contemplate or solve ANYTHING. Until that moment when it ends (or the multiple depending on the situation), I actually am not plagued by thought.
It...
*sigh*
A good day, is a good day. Isn’t it grand?
Anyhow. Got up before noon. Played some “The World Ends with You” and then got a hold of shelby. Went to Barnes & Noble, saw my second family and almost got a tumor because her mom bought me “And Another Thing…”… lol it kills me when someone pays for things I want… So to make it worse she buys me the...
Fade to Black
I’ve opened my eyes and I have seen, the brighter world. There was so much to be missed the last three years, that I almost passed up a wonderful opportunity. A beautiful girl, a wonderful person. Someone who I agree with, even when we battle. She is Adriana, Nana, and my girl.
It’s quite odd, I must admit. I feel old, I feel out of place, but I feel happy. I don’t know where it...
Pedobear time
Dating a freshman now… XD
October 2009
13 posts
This weekend keeps getting better!
Party thursday to celebrate the end of the term. Had a good time with a couple of ladies (no fun time though how sad).
Got some new people to talk to,
and casually talked about casual dating with a casual friend from out of town.