I don’t think I’ve had more than one single relationship (friendship, date, meeting) where a person had simply listened and absorbed something I’ve tried to explain. No matter how disconnected I am, no matter how heartless, how careless I am for the human race - and it is clear by now that I would dispose with humanity should I only have the red button - I have always tried with a burning passion to let them know just what they need to become somewhat more understanding and perhaps survive the coming storm.
When I tell you I love you - I never lie.
When I join with you, and bring you to a new understanding - I do it because I think you deserve it.
When I give to you - I never take back.
You owe me nothing.
But you don’t seem to believe that - you take all I say as a lie as soon as life hits you in the face.
When it’s time for me to go - I leave without regret, for I feel you should now be able to hold hold yourself up, you need me no more.
When I tell you “I’ll always be there” - I mean what I say, for all I have said can help you for a lifetime.
When I tell you its over - I have finally lied, because it will never end.
I am merely a single step in everyone’s life. Whether you heed what I say and learn from life what it has put before you or not… is up to you. But when the cloud comes, blame me not, for I have always held your hand in the dark.
-Jason H. Mathews
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I suppose I said I wouldn’t do this, but when I am slandered and hated for no logical reason, I need to let people know to shut the fuck up.
This is Sean announcing to those that would talk against him, to STFU and stop trying to make people feel better about what I’ve done. In the end it is only going to leave them needing another shoulder to cry on.
To those that said I wasn’t worthy. Life is a learning process, no matter what is happening you should be learning. If I punch you, learn why. If I yell at you, learn why. If I date you… LEARN WHY! Everyone has a lesson to learn and, although I do it brutally, I make sure you have everything you need to learn it! Stop making my decisions out to be as selfish as a rock is to gravity.
To those that say I’m not loyal. I suppose I’m not in the common definition. I do what makes me happy, and usually that means me making people angry, or doing what I feel is nice. Yes, most of you don’t like it, and you feel betrayed. But I’m still there for you. I’m still holding you when you need it and still slapping you when you don’t want it. I’m sorry for hurting you by not fitting your model of greatness.
To those who call me a cheat. Mind your fucking business. I’m not going to be philosophical with you. I’m not going to be kind. You don’t know what I do - all you do is ASS U ME, as usual. When I spend a week with my personal favorite friend, that doesn’t mean I do my favorite personal friendly activity. I talk, I tell stories, and I say what I hope. Yes, I would have loved to have, but I didn’t. So rather than scream it to the world, shut your trap or forget my words. You’ve lost my respect in the matter of sharing my life with you, for asking you for advice. In return don’t expect any from me. You’ve broken both general and sarcastic codes of man law, in spreading what is said between one another freely and negatively effecting the one who spoke.
To the One I hurt. I’m sorry you hate me now. I’m sorry you didn’t learn from your experience with me. I’m sorry you didn’t change. I’m sorry for your predicament, and for your blame. But I’m not sorry for my actions. Like a teacher to a pupil, I can only hope that what I do can help… it’s up to you to utilize my lessons.
-Sean O’Brien
