January 13, 2010
And now it is that I dont want to be

So the pain returns.
My mind is up in full force once again following a week of false alarms.

I have begun yet another span of endless thought that will ravage my mind until the moment that I want to throw myself off a cliff, defy logic, and learn to fly by losing concentration on falling entirely.

I don’t know the cause, and yet again I managed to miss the starting gun to examine it closely… but now rather than sleep in the car as I drive, I space out into neverland and rather than pay attention in class (or sleep), I day-dream of future nightmares and dreamscapes.

Perhaps it is just a compilation of complaints in my head, or maybe the sudden addition of philosophy at random intervals, or worse the reading of an H2G2 story coming to a close. No matter what the cause, I know it is here. My head pangs with a feeling of nauseous over thinking, leading to a headache that stems at my nose and branches deep within my brain.

Maybe its a tumor…

Whatever,it can’t be helped now that it is here. Let’s hope I can ride it out, and not feel lonely as I normally do -_-… too late. Wave of change incoming folks, good luck to those of you who care, and hold on tight.